Vacant Deep Blue Eyes

“By then my ears finally opened and picked up the sounds of my thumping heart, a pulse after another beating and beating loudly”

As the chair that I sat in rattled and creaked in the moving train, I leaned on the window and stared far into the dark void that is the subway tunnel. I was jittery, my body rigid as a stone refusing to let the discomfort leave my bones as the nape of my neck prickled. Slowly and hesitantly my eyes wandered to the seats at my right where a blonde-haired woman sat between two men in trench coats. She kept looking at me ever since I stepped foot on the train, her uncanny deep blue eyes never wavered as she kept gawking at me the whole time. I kept shuffling restlessly in my seat. Stole glances her way here and then. She did neither. Then the moving vehicle halted for a few seconds as some passengers got up and left while others got in and sat. My throat seized shut at the fact that it's not my stop yet and apparently neither was it her’s, but then a man few heads taller than me came in and sat on the cold chair beside me, and then the doors dinged shut and the train resumed moving jolting every few moments. curiously my gaze went back to the women that kept staring at me hoping the man had forced her to avert her vacant stare at me.

But by doing so and accidentally making eye contact with her forced the hair on my skin to rise at full length, it took everything in me to not scream or bark at her to stop so choosing to ignore her was what I did. My eyes were glued to my window not noticing that the next stop neared. Unfortunately, it wasn’t my stop yet which baffled me but the man next to me got up from his seat and stood on both of his long legs. Out of nowhere he got a hold on my pale wrist and dragged me forcibly out of my seat, I wanted to scream and shout that the man was harassing me or even worse kidnapping me with the way his lithe finger pressed against his thin lips gesturing me to keep quiet! But the look in his mellow eyes, of worry and understanding of something I’m unaware of, made me instinctively comply as he leads my stiff body out of the subway and into the crisp night air that beckoned leisurely. He and I stood on the empty sidewalk that he kept looking around making sure that it was indeed empty, he looked back at me as his light brown wavy hair ruffled from the motion, his face stoic and his brows furrowed in seriousness holding my questioning gaze.

"That woman on the train just now wasn’t looking at you." He said in his smooth voice that felt like it was dripping in honey, he might even be fit to work in reading audiobooks if he ever considered taking on such a job. But what he said threw me in a loop. What did he mean? As my mouth took the shape of the letters ready to utter them he responded not waiting for me. "She was dead." He said, silence after that felt sharp and deafening, the air in my lungs stopped moving in and out momentarily as I soaked in the words that glide viscously from his lips. "And those two men beside her were taking her body." Whatever followed after that felt blurry, my legs glued themselves to the cold pavement beneath me. I saw his face nodding at me in slow-motion, and then he turned his back towards me walking the opposite way, his figure grew distant and small. By then my ears finally opened and picked up the sounds of my thumping heart, a pulse after another beating and beating loudly. The air rushed back into my lungs and forcefully rushed back out again and again. The world around me swayed right and left- right and left not stopping, and the skies above my head spun as the teacup rides at amusement parks.

Finally, my knees gave out dropping me to the ground, my arms came to my rescue as they plastered my palm flat on the cold ground. Droplets of water dripped on the floor, but then I noticed they were my sweat. I was sweating everywhere from my head to my legs, my clothes stuck to my body like gloves. It was hot and sticky, nauseating, and dizzy.

No wonder why her deep blue eyes felt so distant and ghostly as if they were dead.